I have something to tell you all.

I know it won't make that much difference to anyone to be honest, because I haven't been posting for a long, long time, but I have decided to delete my blog on here. 

I'm leaving.

I'm going to leave this blog post up for four days, so you can all read it if you want and you know where I've gone. After the four days, I'm deleting everything on here. Sunday 21st is my last day :)

I have a few things I have to say to you all.

So I have my reasons for leaving. They might not sound much but they mean a lot to me. If you could perhaps just read through and try to understand, that would be amazing of you :)

Well, as some of you know (or may not know :P) my blog was a secret kind of thing so I could show my creative 

side (pictures, poems etc) to the world. It has helped me so much in realising who I am, what I want in life. You guys have given me so much confidence in everything I do and for that I can never thank you enough. However, people I know, my friends, my family, people from school, have been finding out about my blog, and I just don't want them to know about it. It is so private to me, shared between me and people who I've never, ever met, and I'd have liked to keep it that way.

Also, I feel so bad about not updating enough. I never hype or comment anymore, I never update, I never follow, mainly because I just don't have the time to go on Piczo anymore. I am sorry for this, I feel like I am letting you all down, but that's just how it is. All of my free time is spent writing essays, drafting coursework, filling out sheets of questions and recapping on the lessons. Yes, it sounds like a pathetic excuse, but that's just the way it's become for me.

Piczo is a great blogging site for some people, but not so great for others. Personally, I love the site, I have been successful on here, I have met loads of nice people and I've loved my time on here. But, if you go off of Piczo for even a few days, you lose contact with everything that's going on. I've been away for weeks, and I have no idea who some of these people are. I used to have a fairly good idea of who's who and who's blogs I wanted to read, but there's a new generation of bloggers out there now :) I can't keep up. I need time to browse, and, as I explained before, I just don't have that time.

In addition to this, I just don't have the inspiration to blog anymore. I used to take photos all the time; now I don't. I used to write poems whenever I could; now, I don't. I just don't know what to say to you anymore. I am leading a boring life; there is nothing I can say to you that would make a good blog post. 

I just want to say, that I have so many followers and stuff and I cannot tell you how grateful I am. I know I've said this before but it's nice to know I'm worth all of those follows. I never got on the homepage once, so it was all out of OUR hard work. Me doing my crappy little blogs and you doing your amazing stuff, hyping, following, commenting. It shows that we can beat the silly rule on Piczo that all of the blogs on the home page are mostly the same people with 1000's of followers. I know this is not always true, but it's one of the most frequent complaints.

Okay, so something else I want you to know. If you're reading this and not thinking "Ugh, she's such a spoilt bitch, get out of the website, why am I even reading this anyway? I just hope she goes and dies in a hole. And dies some more. In a hole" (and believe me, I'm sure a LOT of you are thinking that :P) I just want to thank you. 

It's been a hard decision to do this, and I'm actually sad about it writing this at the moment. But it's the best decision for me.  :)

Thank you all so, so much. It's all been said before on here, thanks for all the comments etc blah blah blah, but I genuinely mean this. You are all my stars. You made my life so much better when I was blogging on here. You gave me a reason to keep happy. Countless times I smiled and laughed and was reduced to tears while on here. You are so, so amazing. You, right there, reading this. I never ever expected to get the amount of support that I got, and I have met such amazing, incredible people. You give me hope. 

Thanks for all the wonderful memories and amazing times we've had. 

This is my last goodbye.
I'll see you in hell ;)

I will never forget you.

All my love

xxx

This is for the kids who turned thirteen not knowing who they were in the world.

This is for the kids who wore their hair covering their faces, even when everyone else had theirs long and out of the way.

This is for the kids who liked drawing and writing when everyone else liked sex and cigarettes.

This is for the kids who never swore for other people, but only for themselves.

This is for the kids whose photos were few and far between, not plastic and posed.

This is for the kids who got so wrapped up in My Chemical Romance, that they knew every word by heart, and every chord change sent a shiver down their little bones.

This is for the kids who ate jelly and ice cream instead of whipped cream and vodka shots.

This is for the kids who swore Hayley Williams was a goddess with red hair dye.

This is for the kids who wore skinny jeans first and got called names for wearing them.

This is for the kids who sat alone in the park.

This is for the kids who always got caught doing things someone else had done.

This is for the kids who lost in winning but won in losing.

This is for the kids who stayed in on a Saturday night, dateless and alone, and listened to Fall Out Boy.

"We were the kids who didn't make it.

We are the kids who never make it.

Here's to us."

- Pete Wentz